Tonight

As I walked through the large crowd, I saw her. Standing by herself with her cup in hand, talking to Jacky, her best friend. We had been friends for such a long time, but the yearning for her had not been this strong before.

“I do not understand why you have not told her anything!” Said Zayn squeezing my shoulder as he saw me staring at her.
“I can’t bring myself to do it, bro.” I said, taking a drink from my cup. “But I want her now. More than before.” I turned to look at her as I said this.

She looked gorgeous tonight. She wore a tan strapless bodycon dress. Her skinny frame wrapped in the tight dress. Her brown normally curly hair hung straight, and it complemented the dress and her skin. She wore black heels that made her long legs look even more sexier. I wanted her. I wanted her now.

“Normally I would not say this about her, but she looks hot tonight man!” He said, reading my thoughts.

“Hell yea, she looks hot. I want her.” I said, taking another sip of my drink.
“Yup. Too bad she won’t let anybody in her pants.” He said laughing and walking towards the kitchen.
“You don’t think I can get her to fuck me?” I said, following him.
“Nope. But… You can try, and I will buy you food for the whole month.” He said as he took a cigarette out of the box and walked outside.
“It’s on, Zayn!” I said walking back inside the house.

I nervously made my way to where she was standing.

“Hey Niall.” She said as he hugged me.
“Hi. You want to go get a drink?” I asked.
She nodded her head and we made our way to the kitchen. I poured us a couple of shots and we drank them quickly. She made faces as the alcohol burned in her throat.
“One more.” I said smiling at her.
We were dancing and then she randomly placed her hands behind my neck. I leant my head down, letting my nose slightly grazing her forhead down to her nose. As our lips met, I felt her hands bury themselves in my hair and push my head closer to hers.

I opened my eyes to see her smiling teasingly at me.
I grabbed her hand and dragged up the stairs to the only room that was empty. She quickly entwined her hands behind my head and crushed her lips to mine. I let my tongue lick her bottom lip, wanting to enter her mouth. She pulled at the hem of my shirt. I quickly took it off. She looked at my bare torso before pushing me closer to her.

The urge for her seemed to become stronger as we kissed passionately once again. I picked her up and sat her on the desk that was in the room. She wrapped her legs around my waist and dug her nails into my back. I left her lips and started to nibble on her neck, placing a trail of love bites. I kissed on her chest. She let go of me and pulled the dress off, leaving her only in her french panties and no bra. God, she was beautiful. I crashed my body on hers and pushed her against the wall. We kissed again, but this time she was the one who wanted it more then me. I started kneading her breasts, making her moan out in pleasure.

She fumbled with the buckle on my belt, but quickly unbuttoned them and dropped them to the floor along with my CK  boxers.

“Oh fuck the foreplay!” I said, anxious to be inside her.

I lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist, making it easier for me. I entered her slowly, making her nails dig further into my skin, she was definitely going to leave a mark. I started thrusting slowly.

“Oh God, Niall” She whispered in my ear, making me speed up my steady pace. I brought my hand between us and started rubbing on her clit, making her cry my name. I was clearly enjoying this.

“Grizsy, you are so fucking hot.” I said as I kissed her hard.

“Faster.” She said in between pants and short breaths.

Before I knew, she was crying out my name as her orgasm came. Seeing her head tilt back and close her eyes as she dug scratched my back pleasure was enough to bring me to my own climax. My thrusts soon became sloppier and slower as she rested her forehead on my shoulder.

Maybe I had won food from Zayn for a whole month, but I had also gotten the girl I had wanted all along.

New chapter is up! Sorry for the wait, was very busy! :) xx

Chapter 8: My apologies

Zayn’s POV
Tonight had been a good night, even though I did my best to try and avoid Harry. I was mad at the fact that the other boys were on his side. Especially Liam. I was really mad at him, but I missed him and wanted to make up with Haz. I felt bad for making him feel like the bad person in the situation, but he had kissed the girl that I liked. I have never been the kind of guy who talks to girls that easily, but with her it had felt natural.

But now at the party, it felt different. I didn’t want to quit smoking and drinking, but I said that was as far as I would go. But when Louis called me to go upstairs and he showed me what he was into, I was shocked. I knew Lou liked to occasionally smoke weed with Harry, but I had no idea he would ever get into this kind of thing.

“Zayn, look what I got for us bro.” He said beaming as he closed and locked the door to his room.
“What? Is that cocaine?” I said, totally not expecting this from him, as he took the bag out of his pocket.
“Yup.” He said as he went to take a seat at his desk and poured the stuff down.
I had never imagined Lou would be into all this.
“Do you want a try?” He said as he snorted half the amount of the powder.
“No Lou, drugs are not my thing.” I said as I walked out of the room.

I felt bad for leaving Louis alone, but I was not about to ruin my life with drugs. Louis and Harry were taking their lives to extremes, the fandom and money getting to them quickly. They were wasting their money like crazy, and they would party and get drunk all the time. Harry was also into shagging random girls, knowing he had a lot of them throwing themselves at him. Louis was staying faithful to Eleanor, which surprised us all, but he really liked her. He had already failed with Hanna, and it made him sad to think that the same could happen with El.

I was sad to see how they were wasting their lives like this. I left their flat and went home to get my stuff ready for New York. I was so happy to be going there. I loved it. It was amazing at night, and I loved it more because I got to meet a lot of other famous people, but this time I was glad because I was going to see Isabel. She was going to be arriving the day after us. Harry did not know this. 

I was afraid to let Harry know that me and Isabel had made up. I felt like a dick for the way I acted the last night that I saw her and knew that my words hurt her. In conversations before we saw her, she had told me what had happened with her ex-boyfriend Mark. He had cheated on her, but made it seem like it was because he had heard rumors about her cheating first. He had called her every bad word in English and Spanish, and it made her feel worthless. I called her yesterday, expecting her voicemail to come up after the first ring. She picked up after the third ring.

“Bueno?” She answered in spanish.
“Hey isabel, it’s Zayn.” I said nervously.
“Oh um hey. How are you?”
“Good and you?”
“I have been good…” She said. Then there was an awkward silence. I needed to tell her what was going through my head for the last months.

“Listen,” I started, breaking the silence ”I know, it has been forever, but I have not been able to stop thinking about the way that I treated you that night after you kissed Harry. I have been hurt a lot in the past, and it broke my heart to see you kiss him. I wanted to cry when I saw you two together, but instead I tried to be a dick. It was hard for me to act any other way. Sure I was mad, but I was also sad. Harry was way drunk, but I know he meant the kiss. It was hard for me to think that you also meant the kiss. I know how close you are to him now. I know you are his girlfriend. I heard him the day he asked you on Skype. It was difficult for me to hear this, but if you are going to be close to him, I want to be OK with you. I have not spoken to Harry in two months, but I want to make it OK with him too. I know this must be awkward for you to hear, but I sincerely mean it.” I ended, feeling way much better about myself and towards her.

“Umm.. I am speechless Zayn.” She said. “But I appreciate you doing this, really, I do. I am sorry you had to find out about me and Harry that way. He said we had to keep it private. I would love it if we could become friends.” I could hear the smile in  her voice.

“Sure.” I said.

We spoke for about an hour. She told me all her plans and said that she was going to live in New York permanently.

Next day

I could tell Harry and Louis had had quite a night, and I was enjoying taking the piss out of them. It was easy talking to Harry again, he didn’t even question it. When we arrived at the airport it was already full of fans, thankfully our flight was ready and we could board the plane.

The flight was quite long, but I slept most of the way. Getting off the plane was the craziest. I knew there would be plenty of fans standing by the terminals. We stopped to say hi to a couple of fans and take some pictures. I continued walking, still a little sleepy, then I saw her. Wait, didn’t she say she was coming tomorrow? I then saw Harry’s face change from tired to completely happy. She smiled at me, then saw Harry walking towards her. He grabbed her by the waist and kissed her hard. She looked back up at me apologetically. Could I really be only friends with her? I was going to try, no matter what.